Keep the balance true.

I think I was an owl in a past life, a wise old owl. 
I stay up nights... just thinking, analyzing, planning. 
Lately I'm feeling a mix of nervous, expectant and nostalgic. 
I have no time to feel lonely anymore.
Although its always there in the background like an unwanted theme of a subconscious play I'm continuously writing, I no longer confuse my lonesome feelings with being alone.
Solitude is other then despair. I embrace the inner resources my solitude has given me and I know that in my life I must make giant circles that I can move in.
 I see the mental and emotional fences a small life can build and I don't want to be fenced in.
 I want to roam, explore and experience my life. 
The fear is that it will keep me from being known. 
My heart is a bit of a desperado, but in most stories of loner cowboys there is always that one person that truly knows them, one loyal to the gypsy soul. 
I hope to find my person soon. 
I believe in a love that's being stored up for me and the value of levity over gravity.
 Life can be a burdensome thing. 
Perhaps I have some weight to lift. 
Perhaps it is my desirous purpose to have something to give instead of take. 
There is no predicting nor controlling what happens to us in life, I think its safe to say,
 I know this more then most, 
but what I have learned is that you can control how you react to it 
and that makes all the difference. 
You can choose not to bark back at life when its harsh with you. 
You can choose not to take revenge when someone wrongs you. 
You can humble yourself when your pride is attacked. 
You can smile and laugh and dance when there seems to be no reason to. 
It may seem naive and juvenile but the jokes on you if you take everything too seriously. 
The reward for letting things go is peace. 
The consequence of detachment is simple joy.


And do not change. Do not divert your love from visible things, but go on loving what is good, simple and ordinary; animals and things and flowers, and keep the balance true. 
-Rainer Maria Rilke

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