Searching for my Bliss.

When people find out I'm moving away from Breckenridge to North Carolina the first thing they ask is "Why?"

Why am i moving? Simple: I'm still searching for my bliss.  I'm not leaving because I hate it here, I love snowboarding, the mountains, the snow and even the cold. I shall miss the breathtaking views, the natural splendor of the Rockies and peacefulness of a mountain town. I love Colorado, I'm not leaving without a bit of a heavy heart, but where I find myself lacking after 6 years in summit county is in the area of relationships, that seems to be the trade off for living in such a transitory resort town. It's been impossible for me to build meaningful relationships because everyone seems to be just passing through this place on the way to their real life. So I guess I'm following suit. I want more, I want friendships that last, a community that is stable and a life with a less lonesome future. I've almost left a few times but something, or someone, always happened to keep me here so this time I'm sticking to my guns from here on out.    Maybe nothing much will change. Maybe it will, maybe it will be much better. Its worth the risk to leave and find out. Little has changed in the past 6 years including myself. And that's what scares me most.  My hope is that starting afresh in a new place, any place, will open up my life and there will be a greater chance that I'll find new situations I can learn and grow in and attract the kind of people who aren't always chasing a good time or just passing through but care about foundations and growth. But mostly my heart needs fed, fed With creativity, music, ideas, projects, education, opportunities and like minds. I've found very few kindred spirits here lately and I need those in my life. For most young adults Breckenridge is a place to party it up and avoid real life or leave before you get stuck in the lifestyle of drugs, alcohol, dead-end jobs and no prospects. Those are four things I no longer wish to be surrounded by and the options are so severely limited I find myself alone most of the time. I think I've finally outgrown Never Never land enough to fly away. I think it will be easier to choose contentment someplace more... real.